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May 7, 2015
As my mother lay in the spare room at my sister’s house laboring to leave this world, she was often in and out of consciousness. Mostly, she was not lucid. She would have conversations with people who weren’t in the room and of whom my sisters and I had never even heard her speak. Probably ...
Read postreturn of the mad
May 4, 2015
When I was little, I screamed a lot. In fairness, life since my conception had been difficult. I was a restless and unhappy baby from the get-go, not only because of intrinsic issues I faced, but also because my home life was a hot mess. My parents were drinking and fighting, splitting up and getting ...
Read postSo we’re having a baby
March 5, 2015
The day after Christmas, we awoke early at my apartment. I had been feeling strange, the holidays had been stressful and odd, and as we talked softly in the early morning light I abruptly said we needed to go buy a pregnancy test. I had a feeling. In the past I audibly rolled my eyes ...
Read postAccountability and Ego and Things
February 18, 2015
(I want to preface this by pointing out that what while I may sometimes sound preachy, what I write here is always directed primarily at myself. Learning how to be a decent human being is a lifelong journey, and this blog is in part a space for me to build an archive of some of ...
Read postSo we’re buying a house
February 12, 2015
So we’re buying a house. It happened on accident, really. After we got back together a few months ago, Em and I were aflutter with possibilities and excitement and we were drunk with a sense of urgency about not wasting another moment of our shared life. So we decided we would look at a “fixer-upper” ...
Read postLet’s get physical
February 10, 2015
A while ago I said I would write about the physical issues I have dealt with over the years, and I have struggled with the possibility of writing about them. In fact, I had no idea how difficult it is for me to be honest about this particular part of my existence until I seriously ...
Read postToxic Smoke Meltdown
January 5, 2015
Some days, being an adult is near impossible. Yesterday was one of those days. I am naturally more introverted than extroverted, which means that in order to replenish my energy I need to be away from crowds, people, noise. Truthfully, I need to be at home. I can recharge away from home (in a hotel room while ...
Read postMore mood talk, with a little poop talk for good measure
January 1, 2015
All my mental health issues probably deserve their very own blog. Not just a blog post, but an entire blog dedicated to unpacking my emotional baggage and sharing the myriad experiences I’ve had with these issues. My medication journey alone is a complex and long story. Before I delve into that journey, though, I want to ...
Read postBipolar Bear
December 30, 2014
Let’s talk about Bipolar II Disorder, shall we? Like I stated in my last post, I have had every intention of discussing it here. I wanted to do it within my own timeframe, but there is also a certain freedom in having your hand forced. No more procrastination. No more rationalizations for why now is ...
Read postwatches
November 25, 2014
In response to the post that was originally here, the person I dated on the rebound linked here and referred to me as a GIANT LIAR – all caps. Sometimes, people are not what we expect them to be. Sometimes, we are not what we expect to be. As adults who have lived decades of ...
Read postCongrats, you made it to the end! Once more with feeling.