November 2013 – Pantsless Weirdo

The season of silence

Posted on November 28, 2013 (August 31, 2019) by PantslessWeirdo

The holidays are looming large and I can’t say that I am very excited about them at all. My relationship with the holidays has always been complicated. Our mom tried her hardest to make them warm and fun, but even as young children we could see the sadness in her eyes and feel the heaviness …

Shapewear

Posted on November 21, 2013 (August 30, 2019) by PantslessWeirdo

In my last post, I ranted about why working out is annoying to me, and touched a little on why I don’t do it regularly. That post started with me talking about shapewear and how I bought some this year for the first time in my life. The reason for that purchase was that I …

Working Out

Posted on November 20, 2013 (August 30, 2019) by PantslessWeirdo

Full disclosure, this post is not written from a totally logical standpoint – rather it’s my feelings on a particular subject. Rarely is logic able to fully supersede emotion; this post and I as a human being are not an exception to that. Earlier this year I took my first trip into the confusing, uncomfortable, …

control and emotions and tantrums and love

Posted on November 15, 2013 (August 30, 2019) by PantslessWeirdo

Perhaps it is crystal clear in reading what I write here, and it is certainly not news to anyone who knows me – I am a Type A personality. I like to be in control. I like to know what is coming next, so that I can plan for it and anticipate it and prepare …

four months

Posted on November 12, 2013 (August 30, 2019) by PantslessWeirdo

Four months ago you left us. Last week as I slept in a hotel room just outside Chicago, I dreamed of you and I wept in my sleep. I wept so hard in my sleep that I audibly cried out until I awakened myself. You were so vivid in my dream that it took me …

handshakes and hugs

Posted on November 6, 2013 (August 30, 2019) by PantslessWeirdo

This week I am at a conference for my job. My industry is very small, and I am younger than most people in it by at least a decade. It is also dominated by dudes, mostly of the older and white variety. This was my second conference, and I would by lying if I said …

crawl forward

Posted on November 3, 2013 (August 30, 2019) by PantslessWeirdo

Most of what I write has some deep life lesson embedded in it, which is rarely intentional. But in twenty-nine short years I have learned more about life, love, and loss than many people learn in a lifetime. Pondering and processing loss tends to lead one to think about life and love. The three are …

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Unfocused Essays from My Basement

Month: November 2013